Its been a while since I found my way back to my blogspot. Being self employed is quite time consuming. I thought days flew by while I was a part of the corporate world but this experience is definitely not what I had expected it to be like.
For me being on my own meant having a lot more time on hand - maybe I am yet to get the time organisation right with this phase of my life but between waking up in the morning, getting to my animation class - learning there, coming back home and going out to meet people with the hope that those meetings would lead into possible business opportunities and trying to get things organised the time that I thought I had on hand seems to completely vanish into thin air. Before I know it - its late in the evening and time to head back home to spend some time doing my animation homework. On days that I can actually take some time to practice my guitar I am lucky. Weekends are also whizzing by.
The overall experience has been so far very new. Especially at my animation class I am the oldest student. The rest of my batchmates are a good 12-13 years younger than I am. We seem to live in two different worlds. They cannot understand why someone would leave a successful career behind to come and learn animation of all the things!! I do not spend any energy trying to explain to them.
The funny part is that all of them seem to be there because they have to be. I overhear comments and curses everyday as to how their parents do not allow them to bunk classes.They crib about the faculty calling their parents if they were absent without information. I am secretly amused by their jumping at every opportunity to go watch the latest movie. Anything to get out of the classes.For them this is the college life. They have chosen these 2 hours a day as their career course. Most of these kids have either just completed their 12th or are attempting to complete it. Their reasons for being there are way too different than mine.
I am there because I want to be, because I want to learn a new art form - like I said we seem to live in two different worlds altogether. I cannot think of wanting to miss a class. 1 month into the course and I keep waiting for my teacher to begin a new topic. There is an excitement in learning like never before in my life.I never felt this way while I was at school, college or my university. I like this phase. I loved the moment I got my student Identity card from my institute. It felt better holding it than my last business card.
Being older it probably takes me a little longer to learn than my batchmates - be it at animation or the guitar. But learn I must. My mind desperately needs this refreshment. Need the creative juices to flow again. God am I glad that I do not have the time on hand as much as I thought I would. I am quite certain I will not regret this decision.
It's also an amazing feeling dropping into bed exhausted at the end of every day. I am hoping that exhaustion is soon also accompanied by the feeling of accomplishment. But hey, its been just about 2 months since I have been self employed. Am sure I will get there eventually. I must.